Tuesday, April 22, 2008


there are so many blog titles i could of given this one.
but i think this might fit it more perfectly.

there are days where i think, this cannot be life.
i can't go on like this.
and others i believe that life is good and whole.

i am so glad spring is here. i've noticed more this year the actual changes with the earth.

i'm beginning to feel like a tiny speck of sweet dust floating around. not exactly knowing where i'll land but floating is ok for now.

i knew this but i don't think i really took it into perspective until now: everyone has problems. not just in their life but with themselves. no one is ok or doing alright. we all have issues.
we are all flawed.

and because of this new revelation i'm loving God more.
He truly sees us for the crappy people we are and says, "beautiful kids, come play with me."

we're so messed up but saved.
we're incredibly wrong but perfect by Him.
we're seriously broken but completely whole.

with this brewing in my head i've been able to handle situations and people differently.
without striving for perfection in relationships i accept the broken messes we are and move on.

because if i truly say i follow Christ shouldn't i be more like Him?

i can breathe a bit easier nowadays.


"I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself."-DC

dark am i, yet lovely. -song of songs 1:5